A-J.A.M

wt.

2011-02-03T20:27:00.003+08:00

murh murh murh

request of shriram lululul

'ahyway what the fuck totalk about

OKAY TIME TO TYPE WITHOUT USING BACKSPACE

hur hurhurhurhur hello

using clo -FUCK- colemak is cool

okay time to find random passage

At theu be -give up

At the very end of there food chains( whcih is to say, at the very bepginning), I invaricably foun myself in almost the -oops- exactly the same place: a farm field in the American Corn Belt

hello what should i do

okay it is a new year i forgot about that

ur what

okay time to talk more reasonably

what why is new year so suck i dont want to sleep

wat do now

okay here is the meat of the post

actually no nothing special

i dont know what to do with all this free time that i have now

interesting.

I assume this is because i played too many games during the holiday

good.

Back to more thinking

WAIT GOOGLE

mulling yes that was it

i shall mull over why bored

okay anyway i think being bored is necessary for humans

it like makes you motivate and shit

Games are addictive. NOw weare back on that topic

after getting used to spending time on them now its liike i have too much time on my hands

except playing games isnt an option

so find shit to do and dont waste your life away

but anyway its just like during the weekend and shit

weekdays there is always school to sap energy and soul away

then you go home and end up thinking WHY NO TIME

then during periods of holiday (like now) you think WHY SO MUCH TIME

but this only holds when people are at your house and there is nothing to do

muh muh muh

2010-06-02T00:19:00.003+08:00

two hundred and seventy four times.

thats the number of times i have felt like crying.

LOL no dont worry i am screwing around

muuuuuussse on life

what should i buy?

i dont really know what you want

would you be sad if i didnt get you anything?

would you be sad if i did?

what is it about music that makes you so immersed

life should have background music.

trot along to buy stuff

i need a replacement wire you see.

but i feel like i owe something

a toy car maybe.

if it werent for you, i wouldnt have bought those flowers.

and i wouldnt buy anything now.

i guess now is a good time as any to start

but im too lazy

and forgetful.

dadadadadadada

someone i know said blogs are where man shows the world their inner selves

show their thoughts and feelings

and how illiterate they are.

im kidding he just said the last part.

what is up with social interaction?

you know, i think private messages are for people to write stuff

that they think sounds good, in order for other people to see it

and feel so impressed

and gain social link exp.

life doesnt work that way scrubs.

.,;:'"()?/\|!-

see i didnt miss out the punctuation in my typing

i just misplaced it is all.

i bet humans think this way.

incoherent babble

it is true.

just that before speaking of it

you organise it

into sentences

such that it flows

and isnt disjointed

a foray into how your thinking process actually works

flawed, yet truth is seen.

discount above statement.

this is interesting.

WHAT are BLOGS For?

they are here for you humans to

same as private messages on msn

to show the world what you want them to see.

probably.

am i guilty of that?

maybe.

i dont know.

most likely not.

foraging you know?

i am an optimistic person

a cynic

jaded

apathetic

happy go lucky

acetic

(acid?)

gf2preqhwr

i meant acedic.

yet realistic.

so its okay

reading those kind of things

wont give me false hope

i just dream.

dodododododododododododoododododododododoodoodoodoodoodoododoodododo

wargh.

clincally, everyone is insane.

insanity is but a deviation from the norm

who is perfectly normal?

haha you retard why are you so significant

forgive my language.

i require sustenance

it is cold out.

it is rather fun

to meander on this medium that is

blogger.

have you noticed

that i am subconsciously writing poems?

poems do not have to rhyme you know.

and last line tends to end with a full stop/period.

what is up with that?

if there was a pen tool like on msn

the drawing you would see would be a rorschach test

except only i would see

it as merely :LKD{AWH9[fAHF
OD[wjd - unintentional enter key pressed.

terribly long post.

its okay

i expect noone to read it in the next few months

unless i tell someone.

only 2 people can identify

and each very little

but its okay

it shows WHAT are you doing lurking in my mind

rheeeeeeeeeeeeeee question

2009-10-27T20:37:00.002+08:00

OH GOD
i just realised there is the new pornographers in that song player thingy

good i will go listen

also look the disturbing stuff that make you wince when you look at it is gone. yay

anyway blogs are for rants and i am too lazy to rant now

i will just say the original purpose, and the continual one if i ever do anything with this blog, is to show how idiotic it is to have a blog that you rant on, exposing what you think about stuff that you ordinarily would not tell anyone, ...and stuff.. lost train of thought.
basically blogs that are used to emo on and say how much you want to kill yourself and stuff is stupid because noone cares

yes mine too but whattheheck this is fun

and least more fun that attempting to be conformist and /wrists

teen agnst yo.

2009-06-01T00:17:00.002+08:00

lol post again

oh remembered

but its in summary again.. so freakin sad. WHERE is the WALL of text?

anyway, i'm a very lonely person.

AND, the reason why I always want to be alone

is because i feel lonely. wtf?

i say i am a natural loner, but it is because deep down, i always feel lonely.

In fact, it is when i feel lonely that i say i feel a loner. ok that statement made sense

It is when i feel lonely, that i feel like being alone.

but of course it feels like shit, so now that i've analysed it, i know when i feel lonely, i should find someone to talk to.

if i could find anyone.

if you require details, feel free to ask

IF anyone actually reads this.

2009-05-31T22:31:00.001+08:00

rant rant

i dont belong here.

haha, no, not like im useless, no-one loves me, the world would be better with me gone

but more like this time doesnt suit me.

blergh.. writing long is a stupid waste of time, so i shall summarise everything

5 years needs to pass.

2009-05-22T00:36:00.002+08:00

it's been a while.

I doubt anyway comes here anyway.. besides, I am not really a fan of blogging.

Regardless.. blogging is fun when you want to rant about issues, yet saying it in any other medium would be way too weird.

Thus, we begin.

First issue.

I'm a loner. Why?

I don't really need anyone. Ok, I mean if like everyone on earth died we WOULD have a problem,

but..

i'm anti-social?

at heart.. what do I need?

it stems back to another problem of mine

I really have nothing I want.

Nothing motivates me, or gives me stress

nothing pushes me to put in effort.

then, you can ask why I actually bother studying.

I don't.

Just that, logically not studying would screw me over.

I would mess up my future,

get physically tormented

but beyond that.. I don't really care.

I put in effort because I force myself to

not because I feel any pressure to.

Ok, you can say pain is a motivator

but then again, that doesnt count.

'cause I have no carrots but there is a stick

if you get the reference.

how do you live life

if there is nothing to live for?

honestly speaking

the main reason why I haven't done things like suicide or be emo and cut myself

is because it hurts

and because there is no reason to.

Although there is no reason not to

which one takes less effort?

You know.. I may be perceived as lazy; a slacker.

It's not that i'm lazy.. its just that there is nothing more valuble to me than doing nothing.

Because I value nothing.. I do things based on effort.

Second point.. this may be extremely hard for you to swallow. It's completely not me.

It isn't.

If i'm correct, most people have a set way of thinking, and this thinking become impaired when emotions are drawn in, and such-like.

I mean to say, you have your one set mind-set, which is changed slightly when you are in different situations.

Do you know, I believe that's not the case for me?

Different ways of thinking. Oh it's nothing like split personalities

just that I perceive things very differently at times.

Like now, for instance. This entire post deals with the emptiness, the void I feel in my heart.

Then, like in school, do I feel the same way? Not at all.

I split it into logic and impulse.

Pure logic to the point of being cold, and the bubbly emotional me.

Who I am, is a mix of the two.

You know, I bring this up as a reason why I can stop laughing whenever I want to?

Why I can don't care, whenever I want to.

I merely bring out a different combination

more logic.. become colder.

anyway, back on track

What will make me care?

The me now, anyway.

The 'normal' me is easy.

although switching is easy too.

although the intent behind this post

was to make the change more permanent.

heck, conflict about what i'm saying

see ya'll

retards. : D

2009-02-20T23:58:00.000+08:00

well screw you.

2009-02-15T00:38:00.002+08:00

what the heck.

i have been forced to blog, yet what does it accomplish?

i dont feel different.

maybe a little.. i dont know.

or it could be something else. whatever.

word of the mood:

..goodbye.

2009-01-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

i changed my pm. woots

thats surprisingly significant.

2009-01-28T16:43:00.002+08:00

The concept of waiting for a sign.

Like, I will wait for a sign that today is the right day to go buy my new buy 1 get 1 free shampoo and conditioner set

Isnt that weird?

Of course, noone ever does that.

But still the topic was brought up, so I shall continue blabbing on about it.

Not.

Right anyway, i got up, went to school, came back, went to sleep.

Of course, today not being over yet i didnt actually go to sleep yet, but i guess i WILL go to sleep eventually.

On a side note, i lost my headphones. lololol

and i found an old set i thought i lost. at the same time.

haha.

plagarism time.

if tl;dr -> i am a hypocritical emo talking shit.

I don't know, I really think life is a pointless mass of problems sometimes. Getting entangled in the problems is one thing but then we teenagers tend to observe the problems outwardly and moan about them existing. I remember spewing shit about this just a few posts ago. But then I'm just a gigantic hypocrite like all of us are. All of you as well. Everyone, in fact, is a gigantic hypocrite who's living for everyone else. Putting on faces no matter how ridiculous they might be; no one's really giving a shit about the fact that we're individuals any more. So as I was saying, hypocrisy, thus venting. Shit happens, eh.

I have no idea what's wrong with me this evening but I'm under a crushing load of depression that I can't get off my back. I'm not good at composing poems about the melancholies of life nor slitting my wrists. So all I can do is limited to pondering about it or talking to people about it. Then obviously there's music without which my head would explode. I'm not really inclined to ponder on things because I always get existential and risk internal hemorrhaging. It's not a really clever thing to do so I was venting to Shaun and shit. Hey Shaun you can skip a few paragraphs it's just a wordy version of what I was blabbering about on msn. It has certainly made me feel a little better so thank you.

As I've probably said before I don't really go to anyone for solutions to my problems. It's been part of my nature to make myself better since I can remember. My parents, though they have good intentions, are never really helpful at all. I'm not close to any other adult really and I'm of the opinion that I have at least as much intellect (and thus ability to solve problems) as the rest of you (i.e my friends). This doesn't imply that I'm intelligent as much as it does that the rest of you aren't. Facing it we are all teenagers who are not really equipped with groundbreaking experience or discretion yet. I at least have the added advantage of knowing who I am as opposed to the rest of you. The point of this brainvomit here is to point out that I'm not really in a position to do anything but self-remedy. At best I'm saying that I'm not asking for anything here as much as saying things.

I've (as much as anyone else at the least) struggled to see any point to the whole concept of leading a life. What I see when I look in the mirror is someone who's living two lives. One I'm living on the surface, what with the trying to get a good CAP and having fun with friends and video games and things. The second, which I've only come to realise fully recently and even then gradually, is something of a struggle (lol) that goes on below or above what's happening in real time. This aspect of my mind only ever surfaces (or plops down, depending on which preposition you liked more in the previous sentence) when I'm listening to music and/or lying on the bed thinking in the wee hours. It's not a cumulative thing with goals or tasks or anything but more of a constant burning desire to assign the other part with some sort of meaning. Why this doesn't work the other way I never quite understood, if it did I'd be rid of this existentialist bullshit. And bullshit it definitely is.

I've always also thought that life is a rather rosey bed of thorns. Either of the other views is just being stupid. If you've noticed there never really are moments where you are free from problems; just ones where you are too optimistic to let them pull your spirits down. Similarly life is never really devoid of happiness, it's actually us really not noticing the silver linings because the dark cloud looks so much more overwhelming. As far as this stupid analogy's gone it might as well go too far. Silver linings can't exist without dark clouds, and dark clouds don't exist without silver linings. Squeeze as much meaning as you can from that sentence (the slightly different grammar in either clause is deliberate) because that's all I can or will elaborate on this. It's not like our problems and fortunes are ever separate. And it's just that which makes me yearn for some sort of meaning in this complexity.

Pretty obviously the first thing anyone can think of would be religion. Religion tells you what work is, what play is, what position you should have sex in, and where you go when you die. They eliminate any chance of existential thinking, or so many believe. Truth be told I might even embrace a religion and dedicate my life to loving Jesus/Krishna/Allah/YHWH, if only I could. It's far beyond my reach now, not to be dreamt of. Maybe it's intellect or maybe it's stupidity, but what I know is that it's what I have. After atheism shakes you, slaps you in either cheek once, and gives you a kick in the butt religion really can't reel you back in. It's like playing with your old toys again. I have a huge collection of toy cars and racetracks which I collected when I was really young, and they're insanely fun to revisit once in a while. But they get really old in a few minutes at the most. It's something like that, I guess. I'm simply detached from religion and it's gone out of the question. I don't know if the meaning religion gives to your life blinds you or binds you or frees you or whatever, and I won't bother commenting (shitstorm and all that). I just feel that religion isn't the answer, or at least my answer. Life isn't an MCQ, after all. No right answer except your answer. And an answer is precisely what I lack.

Another thing I've noticed is how people's moods are either affected by your mood or your perception of them is. Crushing depression spreads like a disease and soon enough any smile you see is forced. You know those awkward sessions, where something just strikes everyone around you at the same time and some kind of emotion shift occurs. If you're good enough at seeing things you'll notice everything about your contemporaries' behaviour changing. Happiness, similarly, infiltrates even the thickest walls of mascara and we can all attest to the viral attributes of laughter. This kind of sheds no light and some light at the same time on the matter of 'the answer'. After you're done with your 'lolo 42' things you might want to think about how when things change it can either be change or a distortion in your perception. That silver lining-dark cloud thing distorts further and drifts further into irrelevance when considering the grand question.

I'm not really trying to be coherent or making sense of thoughts as much as saying things I want to say. Just a little intermission I'm throwing out there.

All of you know (probably) that I'm rather averse to humanity in general. I do have a few I admire and a few I pity and a few I love but otherwise it's pretty general indeed. Part of my reactions to life stem from the fate of the majority. School, workforce, retirement, death. The rich get richer, poor poorer, middle class middle class. In one word : mediocrity. Some get either pole of life though, and these are the more interesting ones. Nick Drake, for example (yes yes), was one of the most interesting souls who ever made music. I'm not going to talk about what his life was like but in any case all you need to know is that he was manically depressed, poor, unrecognised, obscure and commited suicide from all this in the early 70s. His stuff never sold until he became a posthumous musical hero. Unlucky as this might seem for him it reveals entire worlds of thought to us in the form of his last album, Pink Moon (incidentally I just bought this). It's a depressing spiral, though not without rays of hope between the line. It's something of an elaborate commentary on everything condensed into 30 minutes. The emotional grandeur he attains with naught but his voice and an acoustic guitar is unrivalled by the most technically advanced bands of today (see: Dream Theater). It's one of the most interesting albums I've ever heard, and definitely oozes brilliance and genius. A glimpse into his distant observations actually proves as a glimpse into our own minds. Listening to this album 3 times in a row was actually what made the crushing depression subside recently because I just had to think about so much. An unlucky soul's passed and many more definitely have without my notice. It just happens and it begs the question if posthumous appreciation is worth anything. He had just about the worst life but 30 years after his death he is a demigod in the eyes of many. Maybe this is a life well lived? It boggles the mind to think this but it does make sense from the "legacy's only thing left behind" point of view.

Then, obviously, there's the other gang who's incredibly lucky and yet incredibly appreciable. Sir David Attenborough definitely a part of this. The nature presenter in my eyes. You can tell he loves the lilies and the volcanoes and the ants and the lions. He's really lucky to be living his dream (there is no the dream) which is obviously to be connected to nature. His love is merged with his actual life and seperates from the abstract. His love, though, leads him to be a really excellent presenter and a notch above anyone else. This sort of fortune makes it hard to tell if this man really has problems (inseperable from fortune, remember?). But he does definitely have problems like everyone else, just that his (to us) seem to be definitely insignificant because of his luck. How do things like these get into the equation.

These two things might seem irrelevant with respect to each other but think about it. Isn't it really the same question? I'm not sure what I'm even talking about any more but I know I'm not any closer to the answer. I don't even think there is an apparent answer. Answer to what? I don't know the question, but it's something to do with why on earth we are on earth. It never gets any easier to figure out things but it does fade away to the back of our minds where we start focusing on our CAP and friendships again, till things bid us back into the infinite series of loops again.

But then if this is inevitable what on earth do I do till I die? This was a question I thought about, then I realised this was a far easier question to answer. Obviously, I enjoy life as much as humanly possible. Letting your problems take the foreground just fades your happinesses into obscurity while doing the opposite achieves the opposite. Logically having a good time is the best time you can have. How does all of this relate to my first paragraph?

People entangled in the web (i.e people I mentioned in that other post withreal problems), they don't have time to refer to the back of their mind to the existential half of their personality. They just do things to untangle themselves. The outward observer, of course I mean us, has all the luxury of wasting thought power on the existential recesses and perhaps our lack of intellect leads us to get depressed via this.

What is the relevance of this entire post? I don't know.

You can't explain life.

Neither can I.

2009-01-25T02:26:00.023+08:00

compel phonetically contentment and pain,

in us,

smack is between steal kill.

to break me

solve it for win.

4243... thats really long from now.

2009-01-23T22:44:00.000+08:00

you have 6 months.

can you break me?

2009-01-19T21:32:00.002+08:00

If you want something from life, you should reach out and grab it.

Unless you cant reach.

Then get someone with longer arms to get it for you.

2009-01-15T18:20:00.004+08:00

cyncism gone. lol.

Life.

2009-01-11T23:55:00.007+08:00

For once, this post may actually look like a typical blog post. As such, it is advised that you do not read it, because I am sure to make it un-understandable so that none of you idiots have any idea at all of what happens in my life.

Right. As so it goes.

Well.. today I decided to tidy up my computer a little.. it started to lag and all.. but also because I was still being an idiot.

And then, I stumbled across some stuff. Very nostalgic stuff, to say the least. Really.

From better times. Haha..

Well, reading it wasnt exactly the smartest thing I ever did. It reminded me of the fact that the past ALWAYS owns the present. It really brought back some memories. Haiz. I remembered the way I used to be.. so much more fun. Who would have guessed a simple word document could do that? Hahaha..

Well, (have you noticed every paragraph begins with well? If you have, you just ignored the disclaimer, didnt you? STOP READING) that was at a time when I was still 100% carefree.. haha.. Its so nice to just live life like there are no worries..

What happened before is soo much better than today.

I had forgotten all of this. Those feelings, that way of life..

It makes me wonder about my life now.

Should I? Can I even?

(its hard to emo about something when you have to be high on a msn convo hahaha...)

I cant really think properly now.. but really..

what wouldn't I give.. to go back to those days?

Your happiest days of life were before you were 4.

You can start reading again. Not that there is anything to read.

maybe i should like put something funny here so those of you that listen would like get rewarded or something.

2009-01-09T23:14:00.001+08:00

zomg

playing with blog is damn fun

anyone got any suggestions to what i should attempt to tweak next?

2009-01-08T17:29:00.003+08:00

I got up, I got up, I GOT UP.

My running shoes got buried in cornflakes. I felt very hot running around the field and on top of that I had lunch at the high table. I do not like rice pudding. We have had Games with Miss Hodge and with rice pudding and there are still about a hundred years of today still to go.

2009-01-01T19:12:00.003+08:00

lol lol lol lol lol

anyway, something interesting.

guess what my dad said?

i get money if i attain a certain score, CAP-wise.

basically, i get $100,000(thats a hundred thousand people) if i manage to equal the score my dad got in his last year of university, calculated in terms of our CAP.

and,

he said he will give me $10,000,000 (10 million.) if i manage to beat his score.

(like he even has.. lololol)

only problem?

he got 5As, 3 distictions.

assuming distiction is an A+,

he got a CAP of 5.0.

LOL

5.0!!!!!

so, cmon people help me

money money money money money

tell me how to beat a perfect score.. lol.

nooo even yong qin hasnt gotten a freaking 5.0 yet

lol lol lol lol lol

anyway, back to reality.

i have a stomach ache.. nooo

ate too much.

LOL

2008-12-30T23:19:00.000+08:00

lol..
headache, heartache, backache, wristache.

my body is falling apart

2008-12-30T01:06:00.000+08:00

i like writing cryptic stuffs. lol.

can tell i have nothing to do, yea?

2008-12-29T19:19:00.001+08:00

lol headache.

2008-12-28T01:54:00.001+08:00

...who are you?

...why are you here?

what is fate thinking?

2008-12-24T03:01:00.001+08:00

you know

lately i've taken to wearing my windbreaker to sleep.. LOL

well yeah.. another act of my retardation

but recently..

my nights, have been cold.

why do i feel alone?

i rock at this.

2008-12-22T22:10:00.001+08:00

new speaker.

LOL

man.. this speaker goes very loud hahaha

and its a box.

and im using it to listen to.. bagpipes?
LOL

ummm some song called East Hastings.. which is 18mins long
courtesy of shriram

2008-12-14T23:16:00.002+08:00

lol

as always..

im tired.

but the thing is

im tired now, when i cant afford to be.

and oh yea..
i most definitely am not human
..when i'm alone.

(alone means here, now, NOW, at home, with like only my stupid family for company, yea, like with this com here too, and stuff, you know, but this is technically alone because there is no one else in my room, and stuff happens so yea.)

2008-12-10T15:50:00.000+08:00

sometimes.. i wonder..
if i am even human.

2008-11-02T22:51:00.002+08:00

'ctrl v' 'ctrl v' 'ctrl v'

sad.

my clipboard was empty at this point of time.

oh well.

trigo in approximately 9 hours.. woot.

damn.. i planned to sleep at 10.

ah wells.. unpredicted stuff always happens..

stop being pissed, ok?

now to the main topic..

which is...

you can so eat that.

right? right?

its solid!

metal cans.

2008-10-19T00:12:00.002+08:00

LOL.

shriram owns.

now, i shall waste time discussing the merits of the various degrees of rarity of steak.

For example, we have;

Raw - Uncooked. Used in dishes like steak tartare, Carpaccio, Gored gored, tiger meat and Kitfo.
Blue rare or very rare - (37.8°C/100°F core temp) Cooked very quickly; the outside is seared, but the inside is usually cool and barely cooked. The steak will be red on the inside and barely warmed. Sometimes asked for as 'blood rare'. In the United States this is also sometimes referred to as 'Black and Blue' or 'Pittsburgh Rare'.
Rare - (48.9°C/120°F core temp) The outside is gray-brown, and the middle of the steak is red and slightly warm.
Medium rare - (52.2°C/126°F degrees core temp) The steak will have a fully red, warm center. Unless specified otherwise, upscale steakhouses will generally cook to at least this level.
Medium - (57.2°C/135°F degrees core temp) The middle of the steak is hot and red with pink surrounding the center. The outside is gray-brown.
Medium well done - (62.8°C/145°F degrees core temp) The meat is light pink surrounding the center.
Well done - (73.9°C/165°F degrees core temp) The meat is gray-brown throughout and slightly charred
And finally, we have, Burnt. (any degree above 50°C, just leave your steak on the thingy while watching tv, then fall asleep and forget to switch off the heat, then wake up at 9pm and realise the steak was cooking for 12 hours, and also realise you missed breakfast, lunch and dinner, AND also realise you were a retard for cooking steak in the morning, so you throw away the steak and the cooking utensils and go out for chinese food.) (then you realise you have no money, so you die. haha.) The meat is black. Black throughout. VERY charred. Prone to tasting EXTREMELY horrible, especially with ketchup. Can fall apart just from slight poking. Advisable not to eat, if you value not spending the next 84 hours in intensive surgery.

Now, i am bored.

And i realise that this post is done at.. 12.something or other in the morning, refuse to turn head to look at clock, PLUS havent done mastering physics, so i shall..
NOT do mastering physics.

but neither shall i post. OWN YOU IDIOTS THAT WANT TO SEE WHICH WAY OF COOKING STEAK IS THE BEST.

by the way, i ate steak today.

ate medium rare.

squeezing the steak makes it bleed.. then my sauce got red.
from being brown.

who is sqeamish?

haha imagine the..
....
....
.......
NEVER MIND DONT IMAGINE
I AM SQEAMISH

whatever.

anyway...

how the hell

do i even look anything like this dude?

2008-10-12T22:11:00.001+08:00

PLEASE PEOPLE

stop screwing with my name on my cbox.

lol.. i so nice tell you joke and you go and do that

2008-10-12T20:56:00.001+08:00

lol at you idiots blog surfing until you come here.

anyway.. wanna hear a joke?

A man was sleeping under a tree.

THEN

a pineapple and an apple fell on his head. Which one hurt more?

give up? xDDD

his HEAD HURT MORE LAH

lol

this joke was told to me by my 5 year old sister... yay

2008-09-23T21:33:00.001+08:00

lololololol.

end at very late tomorrow.

shit i need to start on work.

lalala.. not now, feeling too weird.

2008-09-20T22:32:00.000+08:00

haha.. i was musing about random things..

and i thought about this.

since words when you add an "in" or "im" in front of you get the opposite meaning

e.g.

frequently--> infrequently
edible--> inedible

so then i thought about credible.

credible--> incredible!

yay.

so incredible isnt actually a compliment.. just saying that whatever you did was not from a trusted source..

implying you cant be trusted..haha

so to conclude..

incredible is a bad word to use.

2008-09-18T23:54:00.000+08:00

yay.

on all 3 as well.

although it was 4 post.. counting this.

pwned.

LOL

am i high?

2008-09-15T20:59:00.000+08:00

lol.... nothing to rant about..

what do i care enough about that i can write long posts on it?

..................................................

.........................................................................................................................................................

ah yes... i started to randomly play this online game again... since my cousin plays i and want to use my awesomes intelligence to kick his ass.. yay.

its some turn based war game thingy... quite fun though.

LINK!

http://www.kingsofchaos.com/recruit.php?uniqid=is89p8m8

although i doubt any of you will even bother to try.

haha..

2008-09-13T09:53:00.000+08:00

3 happy dreams i can remember in 3 days.

my optimistic side is a bastard.

2008-09-13T02:09:00.000+08:00

I'm gullible, I'm shy, and I'm an optimistic bastard.

Anything else?

2008-09-11T20:25:00.001+08:00

Is it just me or is msn dead?

2008-09-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

haha.. not thinking straight.

2008-09-08T21:33:00.000+08:00

i wonder what tomorrow will bring.

2008-09-08T16:38:00.000+08:00

haha.. i couldn't help you today..

but did you have to say that?

haiz...

the worst thing is.. even though i tried to focus..
i couldn't finish all my homework before today.

i couldn't finish geog..

i couldn't keep my word.

2008-09-06T09:14:00.001+08:00

hungry....

but anyway,

i'll wait.

2008-09-04T20:41:00.000+08:00

i am never ever forever never going to post anything again.

until tomorrow.

anyway, you know..

NEVER THINK FINISH YET LAR

2008-09-03T15:21:00.001+08:00

bleh..

i decided to walk home after all.. xD

gave me time to think.

2008-09-01T15:10:00.000+08:00

yeesh.

this haircut makes me look retarded.

hahahaha dun let you see

2008-09-01T10:05:00.000+08:00

aww crap.

i think i chipped my tooth again.

ladies and gentlemen, take this as a life lesson that can be learnt.

drink milk.

2008-08-31T05:09:00.000+08:00

i fail to see the point of a blog. you cant say anything real embarassing unless no-one reads it, then you might as well be typing on microsoft word then.

otherwise, you just spout random crap that is completely irrelevant and uninteresting.

so, why blog?

if you want to express the way you truly feel, most of it is unpublishable, thus, you make a secret blog!

just get microsoft word.

unless you want select people to read it. right?

otherwise, what is the point of crapping "OMG I ATE BANANAS TODAY!! LOLOLZROZ HAXORX"?

completely fail.

2008-08-30T13:00:00.000+08:00

Yay. my friend sent me this song. new favourite song now.

Shriram, no comments.

My Favorite Highway - What Are You Waiting For?

It's never that, it's never quite that innocent
So take it back, all the words you thought you said, but never had
You never had, to say a word, don't say a word
Just hold me close, hold me close and let me go
And then you'll know, you need to know exactly what you're letting go
You're letting go, so walk away and take it slow

Is there anyone out there who is listening to anything
Is there anyone out there who can take my hand, so

Come on, come on
What are you waiting for?
Waiting for your life to end to begin again
No, you get back up and you try again

You never had, you never had a fighting chance, so watch your back
Somehow we always manage to remember that
Under attack, if you lose a friend, you pick up the slack
Whoever said that distance brings you closer, they must not have known
That when you're out of sight you're out of mind and all alone
And when you're on your own, you hate to think that you should've known

Is there anyone out there who is listening to anything
Is there anyone out there who can take my hand, so

Come on, come on
What are you waiting for?
Waiting for your life to end to begin again
No, you get back up and you try again

Come on, come on
What are you waiting for?
Waiting for your life to end to begin again
No, you get back up and you try again

What are you waiting for?
What are you waiting for?

Come on, come on
What are you waiting for?
Waiting for this life to end to begin again
No, you get back up and you try again

Come on, come on
What are you waiting for?
Waiting for your life to end to begin again
No, you get back up, get back up

2008-08-29T19:31:00.000+08:00

LOL was going to post here.

BUT then i deleted it. Otherwise you would become kpo and force me to spill everything =\

hahaha no spoilers for you!

2008-08-28T20:08:00.001+08:00

LOL

deltora quest is a tv show. wth?

2008-08-25T22:04:00.000+08:00

I suppose i shouldnt leave it so cliff-hangery, so ill talk about how im feeling.

COMPLETELY EMPTY.

no stress. no joy. no sadness. no fear. no hunger. no pain. no happiness.

And i think i finally know why.

Because i'm content with life.

Im no longer motivated to do anything at all; i dont feel like i need to do anything.

Its like i can simply sit there and do nothing, and im completely content with the way everything is.

2008-08-25T19:01:00.001+08:00

haha

i was going to post here, but the post became M18

so i decided to put it somewhere else.

2008-08-24T14:21:00.001+08:00

LOL i wonder what would happen if i typed that.

2008-08-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

"The rose petal floats on the water.
The kingfisher flashes above the pond.
Life and beauty swirl in the midst of death."

2008-08-19T18:31:00.000+08:00

I have hidden it somewhere. Find it and figure it out, and learn something about me.
Need help?

IFRITS -I

2008-08-18T19:35:00.000+08:00

Whoa eportfolio never been touched. Fail.

2008-08-17T18:22:00.000+08:00

Dum, dum de dum dum, dum de dum, dum de dum dum dum de dum, dum de dum

2008-08-16T23:25:00.001+08:00

Scared to. Want to. Hate to.

2008-08-15T20:27:00.001+08:00

i want to hug something tightly

2008-08-13T13:49:00.000+08:00

My left foot is swollen

2008-08-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

Woots forgot to post; yet it must be a one-liner, so use of conjuctives!

2008-08-04T17:31:00.000+08:00

Learn to care.

2008-08-02T23:39:00.000+08:00

Get better or die.

2008-07-30T22:14:00.000+08:00

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2008-07-14T15:26:00.001+08:00

Damn. NOw my text is in hyperlink, AND what i typed before is gone. anway, yeah, dont blog. OR else.
nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao nao <-- funny , it doesnt look like a word anymore..

right.
GUTS SPILLED OUT!!! RUN FOR YOUR LIVES!! STOP SPILLING YOUR GUTS TO COMPLETE STRANGERS!!
and nao me cans gos and be offline for another 9 days
OMG i has becomes enlighteneds.
BLOGS ARE STOOPID
yay.

anyway, this is what happends if you blog too much

2008-07-03T18:28:00.000+08:00

dum de dum de dum.
man. so noisy.
cos nao (<--- damn nice way to spell now) people are reading this damn thing. you know how weird it is that you are spilling your guts to people you never met before? its downright insane. and now im freaking doing it too.
proves something.
LOL NO CAPS
damn. statement has been falsified.

teh (<---- damn nice way to spell the)

2008-06-18T15:10:00.000+08:00

Screw.
Dont have time.
Dad force me to do work.
So yea.
REMIND ME DO LATER LAH
yea only some days til school starts again

2008-06-10T21:17:00.001+08:00

NEVER

standard answer.

2008-06-08T01:59:00.000+08:00

Meh. i have been so called tagged for a blog quiz. so i have to do. -.-
but i lazy to do now, as it is 2 am, and im not allowed on the com, so if im caught i will die.
so do later.
haha.
now sleep.

2008-06-03T12:57:00.000+08:00

o.O copy and paste time!

Math Poem

This poem was written by John Saxon (an author of math textbooks).
((12 + 144 + 20 + (3 * 4^(1/2))) / 7) + (5 * 11) = 9^2 + 0

Or for those who have trouble with the poem: (highlight)

A Dozen, a Gross and a Score,
plus three times the square root of four,
divided by seven,
plus five times eleven,
equals nine squared and not a bit more.

Now i dare you to write one too.

2008-06-02T17:09:00.000+08:00

caps lock is the best thingy ever. you might acCCIDENTALLY PRESS IT, AND THEN WHO KNOWS WHAT YOU MIGHT TYPE.
yea. when that happens, it hurts. deep inside.

oh yea, coincidentally, the only caps in here came from caps lock. you know, i didnt start a new sentence with a capital and all.

Dedicated to Shriram

2008-05-28T20:02:00.000+08:00

This post is cool.

CEO's message

2008-05-27T22:06:00.000+08:00

Monthly report
I am proud to say that over this last um.. month! that only one person has managed to find the location of our blog so far. Well done everyone for doing such a good job of keeping quiet!
For the second alert, please be informed that a bright forecast is ahead; it is predicted that only a maximum of 2 more people will find this blog in the coming months. However, due to the leakage we already have, this optimistic view can only go forward if we are able to silence the infernal Nello. Thus, I propose a board meeting between all the board directors of this blog to take place next Tuesday, May 20 2008, at 3:00pm sharp, to discuss this matter further.
On a lighter note; this being the only spot of bad news so far, the stock price of this company has increased 200% over the last quarter! Also, all shareholders who have above 20% in the company will receive loyal bonuses if hose shares are over 5 years old.

Financial report
Gross Income: $- 323810
Net profit: $0
Projected Income for next quarter: $0
Net Expenditure: $323810

NOW SCREW ALL OF YOU FOR MAKING THIS REDUNDANT

2008-05-21T20:08:00.000+08:00

Welcome to the best post ever!!
yay.
yea, i unlocked my phone.
Oh! yea if you find this blog, i'll give you $10 (duh only people i know right?)

2008-05-20T21:37:00.001+08:00

I locked my phone today. LOL

2008-05-14T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hmm. A Quiz!
(1 or more yes/no means that i am smarter than you.)

Does anyone use windows?
Yes/No
Does anyone use vista?
Yes/No
Do you use the vista aero scheme?
Yes/No
Do you use firefox?
Yes/No
Do you use tabbed browsing?
Yes/No
Do you use the aero fox theme?
Yes/No
Have you ever loaded a page so long that you can hold your cursor over the close tab button before it loads?
Yes/No
Is the vista loading circle still there?
Yes/No
Are you doing it now?
Yes/No

Ok, now look. The vista aero loading circle fits exactly over the "x" button!

2008-05-13T14:14:00.000+08:00

YOU ARE WEIRD
i win.

Booklist!

2008-05-07T16:35:00.000+08:00

It seems such a waste, so i shall post the books i have read everyday!(not posting everyday, just the books i have read everyday. You knew that..right?)
ok yesterday i read 4 books! have you heard of any of them?

Echo burning - Lee Child
The hard way - Lee Child
Veil of a thousand tears - Eric Van Lustbader
Phantom - Terry Goodkind

so i slept at 3:30 and woke at 10:30. woot! i slept 7 hours, still more than you abnormal people that slept 3 seconds on weekends

2008-05-05T22:39:00.000+08:00

Hmm..its appears that i have to perform analysis on people's blogs again. Where to start?
Ok. Today's analysis will be on the major cons of blogging. Namely, you waste 100% OF YOUR LIFE on this thingy. ya.
Hmmmm ...ok firstly, how much time do you waste on customizing you blogskins? Quite alot right? Funny how you can waste an hour searching for the right blogskin, yet you feel that wasting 15 minutes sucks. Haha.. ok maybe not. But still, customizing your blogskin is weird. Its not like the cooler or fancier your skin is the more popular or richer or whatever you get. Weird huh? You dont actually get anything in return for dressing your blog up nicely. See? It doesnt make sense at all to actually design your blog! Now all of you will feel miserable, curl up and die because you wasted so much time reading this.(this being the post. Just checking. Sometimes humans are so dense.)

(oh ya, im not wasting time writing this, as im educating the general public. Nice eh?)

Teh title

2008-05-04T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. holidays.
Holidays suck.
Hey! Anyone want to do anything over the holidays?

2008-05-01T16:44:00.000+08:00

I can't stop thinking about you.

OK back to evaluation

2008-05-01T12:33:00.000+08:00

Ok..nick's blog is such an emo one... do you agree? Its so weird. Maybe i should become emo too and copy his style.
Thats a thought. Emo style..
Gah anyway going out for lunch, so i guess i'll stop with this short post! Even though no-one reads this cos i havent told anyway i have a blog yet T.T
Ah you'll all find out eventually
Like next year

Holy (insert random word from dictionary, starting with z, here)

2008-05-01T04:01:00.000+08:00

GAH...... an A- for my math CA.. can you believe it?
Yeesh. And to think it was all the fault of the stupid last test... Maybe i should become emo.. what do you think?
Anyway.. A-!!! i can predict what you are thinking
If you got better than me you are happy
If you got worse than me you are being insulted
Ah well..can't be angry
HOLIDAY TOMMOROW!!
damn it can't concentrate... this feeling is weird..
Ask me what the feeling is!

Yay

2008-04-30T07:16:00.000+08:00

Well.. my blog is unbanned..not bad..
Again the randomness of the day.. its like the day is random..you know?
Anyway, for some reason we had exams again. Weird. I guess they're preparing us for exam week. You know, the preparations we have being go through seem SO real. Everyone else is acting like its the real exams for some reason, and they're revising any everything. Funny isnt it?
Enough playing, my thoughts on TEH day. teh teh teh teh..:)
Teh is such a nice word.. its just that when you type it, everyone assumes you simply misspelled 'the'. Its annoying, that. I mean, if you said TEH to their face they would be all QMG and i think hes got rabies and all that, but if you type it its like they dont even notice.
Wow this is long.
Damn. I need a fridge in my room.

2008-04-27T11:20:00.000+08:00

Well.. my bad..
you can post your own specified date and time
gah...

Testing

2008-04-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

ok.. this post is for research purposes..
i suspect blogger time to be out of sync with the real world xD
on a sidenote, this post was posted on SATURDAY 8:18 PM

Whoops

2008-04-26T12:20:00.000+08:00

Just another thought... shouldnt it be A JAM?
funny that.
gah... exams are coming and i fail to do any revision of sorts
oh well. i suppose everyone should feel what its like to fail at least once
nicholas is still distracting me...
o.O and i suppose im wasting my time on this.

Well

2008-04-25T17:15:00.000+08:00

yay... JAM is a cool acronym, right?
ok, my thoughts on the day
well.. blogs have these things about them..
people suddenly become so emo on blogs. Funny isnt it?
Everything they write becomes very emo and self-centred.
Yes..blogs are about yourself... blah blah..
but the things that happen to you are not due to yourself.. so you cant just talk about you.
Which is why i made JAM. (the irony) lol...
so yea.. just noting that for today..

all blogs are JAM

2007-12-24T03:34:00.000+08:00

http://www.imeem.com/people/92kFA1a//music/U-EjMEWY/what_ifmp3/

2007-12-20T20:23:00.000+08:00

Lol. I hate myself.

Doing something so stupid.

Its not like i can take it back, right?

2007-11-29T13:29:00.000+08:00

"..........................................? .................................................? ............................................................................?"

Because you are special to me.

Why?

Because.

Is this it? GO FIGURE

Next step; look around, its on this page.

I like you.